A Note of Appreciation!

I've thought about blogging for some time now. Should I blog? Would people read it? What would I write about? All questions I asked myself numerous times.
Should I blog...Why not?! I'm not hurting anyone, and I'd like to be able to look back at this and see that I have improved my life. That my thoughts have grown, and I have matured. True I have a Livejournal account, but recently that has been plagued with my complaints. I don't want this to be like that.
Would people read it...Do I care? The answer is yes to both. I want people to read what I have to say. I just don't want this blog to be my word vomit typed on a page, but something of meaning. I'd like to write about recipes I've had success with and those that were disastrous. I want to write about people who inspire me, and why. I have people who make me feel better, and I want to write how I feel about them.
This brings me to my first post topic: Appreciation.
Sadly, this is not a feeling a feel often. I work hard at my job, and at home, and there are lots of times this goes unnoticed, and the feeling a being unappreciated sets in. I believe it stems from how hard I worked growing up. Caring for my sister and my alcoholic mother was not easy, and something I wish on no one. I lost my childhood, and am just now beginning to realize how much I've given up. I'm not blaming it, I just believe that's the root.
Last weekend, I helped with a reenactment group (the SCA-I'll write about this later I'm sure) Josh are with. I ran the gate portion where people sign in, it's fairly important, and I've never done it before solo, so I was pretty nervous. Turns out I messed a few things up, and when I went for help I felt horrible! I thought I had royally screwed up, and my mistakes were huge. I told the right people, Lyndis, Jenara, Jacomas, and Ned. and they reassured me several times that things were fine. Hearing this I burst into tears. Tears of relief, tears of being over-whelmed, but mostly tears of appreciation, gratitude, and love! I had messed up and nobody was mad, nobody was yelling. Really, it was fine! Things were fixed, and I've learned from it. I can't even begin to describe how much I care for these people. I think you guys are top notch, and I truly appreciate all of you!
Sally