Rough day with a silver lining

Originally posted January 11th 2011

I'm glad to be sitting at home tonight, my belly full of some AMAZING Curried Chicken Soup and in good company.

I can't say that the rest of my day has been all rainbows. Last night I paid bills. This is fairly easy for me since Josh tallies them all on a spread sheet and just tells me how much it is. We've tried different techniques, and this is definitely the one that works for us. Doing this monthly chore may be easy, but it very stressful last night in particular.

I coughed up the rent, utilities, cat bill, and car repayment happily. Feeling good about myself, I thought I would pay some on my wedding dress. When I opened that bill I was shocked!! Apparently, I had let the window of no interest slip, and now owed interest. This bill was MUCH more than I thought it would be. At the moment I sucked it up and wrote the check. Though, the feeling wasn't quite as good as I thought it would I did just pay off a bill that won't just sit collecting interest.

It was then that I realized I had my credit card to pay. I thought I could get away with paying only the minimum this month, but saw that that would not do. I wasn't going to get anywhere just paying 20 dollars a month on a high interest card. I panicked but not for long. I had a football game to distract me.

I had just spent most of my paycheck paying for my dress and living expense. I still had to buy food and gas for this month so I was stuck.

I went to bed feeling not so hot, but surprising I slept well.

Originally Posted January 11th 2011

Today is when I fell apart. I panicked at work, panicked at the bank, and on the phone with my poor husband. I thought of different ways I could pay all my and wished I hadn't thrown so much money at my silly wedding dress. There were multiple bouts of tears, eventually making me sick. Not on purpose, just from the nerves of the day. I didn't feel any better, and didn't make anything doing it.

Do not do this to yourself! It's bad not only healthy, but bad for your psyche.

Life does go on, and although I will have to be extremely creative in our meals this month it is doable.

The silver lining of all of this...I have one debt all paid off! Now, on to the next.